Monday, January 4, 2010

Wrapping It Up


Alright, time to finish this up. I've told you about what has helped me, what has hurt me, what has been hard for me, and what I'm going to be doing in the future, but what I haven't told you is how I feel about these four years of writing. A countless amount of hours has been spent on writing through my four year high school career, and I have four portfolios to show for it, even though a couple may have been thrown out...on accident. But as I'm sitting here typing, I really don't know how I feel about this four years of writing. It has been enjoyable sometimes and not so much other times. I guess I'm pretty happy about how far I've come since Freshman year, and I hope that I'll be doing something like writer's workshop in the future. That being said, I'm going to keep writing just a hobby and not something that I major in or want to make into a career. So I don't know, I'd like to keep writing but not be writing too much. For me, it's only fun when you want to write, so that's what I want to do.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Overall Thoughts on Four Years of Writing


Four years is a long time. In these four years of writer's workshop I can't say that I have learned anything significant in writing pieces. I did learn how to write poems pretty well, but no big epiphanies occurred for me through these four years. What I did learn though, was a bunch of little things that allowed me to improve my overall writing. Learning how to develop a character was probably the most important of these little things I learned. This helps because every story is going to have at least one character, and better characters translate to better stories. Learning how to use suspense to its fullest effect has also helped me improve my writing, as it keeps the reader more interested in a story. I've also learned to look at my sentence structures and shorten some of them up, because I write a lot of run-ons. Applying these improvements, as well as other little one that maybe I don't even notice, to my writing are the reason I am much better today than when I started four years ago.

The greatest catalyst of my growth is definitely all of the conferences I've had. The reason I write the way I do is because I think it sounds good. Most of the time it has to take a peer or a teacher to notice errors in my writing for me to actually see them. Because if I saw my mistakes on my own, wouldn't I not even write them? So it is mainly from the help of others that my writing has improved. Another catalyst may be that I've tried experimenting with writing styles. I think that opening myself of to different types of writing has let me try new things and learn new ways to write.

I've had some struggles over these four years too. Specifically, attempting to make my dialogue as realistic as possible in one of my pieces Senior year was a big struggle. Another part of writing that is tough for me is not writing many run-on sentences; I tend to put lots of commas in my writing. Finally, the biggest thing I struggle with, and this has occurred constantly over four years, is the inability to come up with ideas. I can't tell you how many times I'll sit at my computer for at least an hour and end up with nothing on the page. Grammar can also be pretty tough for me. I'm probably forgetting a few things, but other than that, I haven't had any other problems.

In the future, I'm going to focus mainly on continuing to try new things in my writing. If I keep doing the same stuff, I'm going to get bored with it. I also will want to continue to work on my character development. I've come a long way since Freshman year, but I think that there still is some improvements that need to be made. I'm not what else I'll be working on, but hopefully my writing will keep improving.

Comments on Stories of a Writer

This piece best shows my progress as a writer. It's not my best piece, but it best shows my improvements on areas of my writing that were weak. I enjoyed writing it, because I could relate to the feeling of having writer's block so well. I liked the plot of the story, as well as the details of the epiphany the narrator comes to at the end. I originally didn't include that, but the piece was much improved after I did. This was one of the things I learned. I don't know why, but when reading my piece, I learned to realize when something was missing. I'm not sure how I could tell, but I would sometimes be left with that feeling that something more should be added. This probably happens with everything, but it was just something I got much better at as I continued to write.

Senior Piece: Stories of a Writer


Emptiness. This was the one and only word out of the whole English dictionary that he could think of. His mind was empty. It was like a fifty foot brick wall stood between him, pen in hand, and his notebook. There was only one way to conquer this seemingly unsurpassable wall, and unfortunately he, at the moment, could not do it. Tap, tap, tap; the pen hit the paper creating a noise to break the silence of the room. Click, click, click; he became mesmerized by the fact that his pen could make more than one sound. Click, tap, click, tap. Snnappp.

“Oooo, another one,” He thought as he explored the new sound his pen had made. Following this entertainment was the soft thud of the pen falling onto the paper… He needed to focus. Writing a simple story was much harder than he thought it would be. Just then, as if God himself had wished to distract him, the clouds parted and the gleaming sun appeared for the first time that day. Rich, green leaves danced in the breeze and played in the sun’s streaming light. “Man, I wish I was outside,” he thought. “Maybe I’ll just go out for a bit.” But looking back down at the blank paper, he knew that he had to stay in his room and work. He pulled down the shades.

Leaning back in his chair, he continued to tap on the notebook. The brick wall blocking him from writing must have been getting bigger, because he was even more clueless about what to write than before. “How about I just do this tomorrow,” he attempted to persuade himself. “That’s perfect! It’s much easier to write on Thursdays anyway.” Procrastination had apparently won this battle. He jumped up from the uncomfortable chair and headed downstairs.

He could practically smell the fresh new leaves that come with spring, almost hear excited birds singing pleasantly to one another, and nearly feel the sunlight warming his anxious body as its rays seeped into the earth. The welcoming weather of spring had convinced him to go outside, and he had one foot out the door when he suddenly came to an abrupt halt. At that moment he remembered that the paper was due tomorrow, so he trudged back to the prison that his parents called a bedroom.

“How can I think of a story to write?” He wondered. For no particular reason, he glanced down at a book lying on the floor. On the cover was a picture of a camera; and that was it.

As empty as his mind had been a second ago, it now began filling quickly with ideas. Memories of old family pictures flew into his head. Then photos of friends appeared as well. His eyes began to widen as the stream of memories rapidly flowed. Into his racing mind came flashes of colors, lines, shapes, bodies, clothing, athletes playing sports, musicians performing, artists painting pictures, people laughing together, clouds lazily passing through a careless summer sky, and suns slowly setting.

With this rush of thoughts a character began to take shape. Legs appeared; long, but strong. Then a body materialized, as well built shoulders sprouted from a narrow waist, and thin arms emerged as well. A long, tan face grew from the neck, and dark brown hair streamed out from the top of her head. Green eyes formed, along with a tiny nose, mouth, and a pair of ears. She would have many friends, and live a modest life, but would have a secret lying within her. What made this secret special was that not even she knew what it was, but she would eventually need to discover it. Thoughts were coming so fast that he had to write them all down. The brick wall had been smashed, and there was no turning back. His previously deadlocked mind had found the key to open itself to the possibilities of a world worth exploring. He jotted down this explosion of ideas, finally creating another sound in the room besides the clicking and tapping of a pen.

Senior Year of Writing

This was my final year of high school writing, and I could see the quality of my writing improving. Again I had Mrs. Topham, and again, this would mean doing lots of work. But this year I felt good knowing exactly what was required from us in the portfolio. I thought this would be a big advantage, but it really was not at all. I told myself I would have the portfolio done weeks in advance, but just like last year, I was up finishing it the night before it was due. Anyway, senior year was a strong finish for me. This was the first time I had ever created a portfolio and having the confidence of knowing that every piece inside of it was strong. I spent more time writing this year than I ever have in high school, and all of that work allowed me to produce five of my favorite pieces. It didn't seem like I had any particular focus this year. I had spent the last three years improving some of the skills I was weaker at, and I think that this year, I wanted to use all of those refined skills. My storytelling had gotten much better, I was now good at using suspense, and I could now develop a character pretty well, so I wanted to use all of these in one story. This is the Senior piece I have included, but I would like to talk about one last weakness I had this year. I wanted to try new things this year, and this was the reason for my decision to try writing an all-dialogue piece. Well it wasn't all dialogue, but the majority of it was. This was very tough, and I struggled with making the conversation as realistic as possible, but in the end, I felt like I had created a good piece.

Comments on The Insides of Poetry

As I said, this was my favorite piece, and even still probably is. My thought to write this came from the interesting idea that you can look at a poem and get one meaning, and then look at it again another time and get a completely different meaning. Although it is the exact same text both times, what changes is you as a person, and that's what effects your perception of the poem. The best part about this poem was the imagery. Without strong imagery, I think this poem would be pretty bad.

This poem showed my new ability to create strong poetry. This was one part of my writing that had always been weak, and I think this piece changed that.

Junior Piece: The Insides of Poetry

When I finally got the chance to look inside,
Just a glimpse into its depths;
I saw light.
A butterfly was fluttering around,
Free as anything I had ever seen,
Flying gracefully through endless possibilities,
Revealing its radiant beauty to eager explorers.
Below, daisies smiled up at me.
Lush bluegrass envied the tantalizing roses,
Swaying lightly in a summer breeze.
I gently closed the poem back up, Careful not to disturb the harmonious atmosphere.

Pondering what I saw that day,
I peer inside again,
Hoping for piercing rays to illuminate my soul,
But everything is dark;
Gloomy ghosts drift lifelessly,
Hovering over cold, unresponsive wings.
Daisies have wilted; the bluegrass now brown.
A lone rose stands amidst death itself;
I attempt to save it but am hindered by a thorn,
Stabbing my skin.
I curse and blood drips on a poignant scene.
I slam the poem closed.

Perhaps if I revisit this ever-changing garden,
The butterfly will greet me,
And land softly on my timid finger,
Healing a sore wound,
Once created by a thorn.